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“The strength I’m looking for isn’t the kind where you win or lose. I’m not after a wall that’ll repel power coming from outside. What I want is the kind of strength to be able to absorb that outside power, to stand up to it. The strength to quietly endure things — unfairness, misfortune, sadness, mistakes, misunderstandings.” ~ Kafka on the Shore, Haruki Murakami